Theres a line in Pretty Woman. Well several, but one in particular. The gist is when they are lying in bed talking and he asks about her past etc, and she says....the bad stuff is easier to believe

So why? Why do we do that? Ignore all the good stuff people say, and micro focus on the tiny negative thing?

And on a similar line, why do I know something is a bad idea, but still do it over and over again? Why do I not learn? Why do I think that the other person has changed in any way, will listen this time when they never have before?

Why when I am healthy, my kids the same, the dog, well yes, anyway, I have my own home, food in the cupboard, more friends than i can count some days. Why am I constantly surprised they still like me after getting to know me? And why do I focus on the things I dont have? A man mostly, though other stuff some days too. Not possesions, cos though more money would be great, it would be so i could pay all my bills without worrying, not for things, have never greatly cared about those.

And I'm alone in this. Why do we do it? And will I ever learn that sometimes its jsut not worth it, and to move on?

Pics of doggy

This is Smartie, and Abby, and a bit of Amos. I took it yesterday morning. You can kind of see her leg, though its less obvious now than a couple of weeks ago when it was all freshly shaved and bald. As I think I said, its not in a cast, just pins, as hopefully the next pic shows.....




It looks worse than it is, but you can understand why when it was new, Holly took one look and burst into tears! It is actually 6 metal pins which are screwed into her bone, with a bar across them all holding them in place, and firmly so. If all continues to go well, she has an xray in about 4 weeks, which should show the bone all healed, at which point the pins come out.

Those pics were taken after last weeks green bandage came off. Some skirmish with one of the cats. So yesterday when we went to vets for check up, she got a lovely new pink one. Its main purpose being to protect her and us from the ends of the pins! They may not be needle sharp, but trust me, you dont wanna get poked by one. As todays final pic shows, she is generally pretty chilled out, and doing well \o/

According to some AOL article, there are 15 types of men/relationships women go through. Well 14 really, but they clearly thought 15 sounded better so included doing a Katy Perry (Or doing a Jess ;)). The list started with first love and ended with "the one" and had most things in between, the 'one night stand', holiday romance, etc etc.

Still on the bright side I reckon in one way or another I've now gone through 9 of them, so only 5 to go til me and Mr Right start living happily ever after

I need to stop reading chick lit. They all seem to go from one relationship to the dream one in no time, yet after nearly 3 years I've yet to have one show more than a passing interest :-\

Despite how that might sound I'm not desperate, well not much. It jsut would be nice.... But I'm gonna try and focus on the positives. I can live perfectly well and happily without a man. I have my (mostly) fantastic kids, a gorgeous dog, a roof over my head, enough money to have all the necessities, and even occasional treats. Its a beautiful day, I live in a country where I'm free to do pretty much what I please, and I have my health. I could go for a walk in the lovely spring sunshine (I said could, not will!), I have amazing friends, an internet connection ;) and wine in the fridge :)

In general life is good, but at this moment, I still feel a bit quiet :( Oh well, life goes on and all that

Smartie news.....she came home on Thursday, is hopping around with no real problems. Shes not meant to do much more than lie around. I have put a stair gate up, and keep reminded her not to jump, at all! Not to say hello, not onto the sofa, not onto the sleepers in the garden to get to one of her sniffing spots. Daft dog. She goes back to vets tomorrow for a check up. I was going to take pics yesterday, but I can t work out how to use the digital camera my mum gave us :-x It might just have dead batteries.

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Vet rang me mid afternoon and told me she's had her op. It went very well, they've managed to put her bones back where they should be, and her leg is now all pinned and clamped and goodness knows what else. She had come round again by the time vet rang, and was fine. They are keeping her in again tonight to keep an eye on her and keep her topped up with painkillers, but she ought to come home tomorrow.

Then the fun begins of trying to persaude her the that vet said 6 weeks of rest!

Not much else happening, I've about two thirds of the way through replacing kitchen floor, tis looking great. Have also been repainting bits of wall while I'm at it. Bit pointless laying a new floor and THEN painting. Am jsut doing it the same colour, covering some of the marks that have magically appeared. None of my children ever touch the walls. Same way their stuff walks all by itself to the middle of the floor and then sits there.

We've not won pub quiz so much recently, the curly merkins are back on form :-\

School holidays start soon, I will undoubtably have had enough by about 8am Saturday morning. Would be sooner but I'm going out Friday night.

I will try and get a pic of Smartie all bandaged up. It'll take me months to get round to moving it from camera to pc and then to blog, but thats nothing new.